on rainfall
“just let me love you when your heart is tired.”
finally i feel:
the air, the wind, the water dew;
the chilly breeze,
the humidity it brings
after a rainfall,
all around me.
in my ears,
the song plays
in my head,
the lyrics flow;
in my heart,
my heartbeats bloom;
sometimes fast
and sometimes steadily slow.
i face up to the sky,
feeling the warmth;
on my lips,
a smile gently broke.
finally i feel:
every single ray of sunshine,
and a ray of hope.
i just want to sleep.
yesterday was again my birthday.
every year is another new pain.
i opened my phone and turned on the cam,
smiling so bright like i always am.
i said “dad, mom, my baby brother, hi,”
they wished me a happy birthday,
and sang me the birthday song with pride.
the candle was blown,
i hung up the phone.
finally,
finally, i am by my own.
i closed my eyes,
i turned off my mind.
i am so tired,
all i want to do is to cry.
i am so tired,
i just want to go back and sleep;
i want to escape the reality,
and have a sweet little dream.
because that’s the only place i can be me,
safely and happily,
other than when you are sitting next to me.
