go for it.

if you fall, someone will catch you;

if there’s no one, I will be there for you;

if for some reason I cannot be there,

you will bounce back yourself,

and learn how to fall better next time.

for there is no failure,

but only experience.

nothing right now really matters when you look back in your

20s, 30s, 40s, 50s, 60s, 70s, 80s, 90s, 100s (hell pls not).

the only thing that matters is: have no regrets.

for when you are so close to death,

nothing really matters,

and you can never go back.

so,

‘I had’ is better than ‘I should have’.

is this the best year of my life?

perhaps not.

are there many good ones yet to come?

hell fucking yeah.

I looked up to the sky,

fear that my tears fall down;

but when I looked into your eyes,

hell now I am drowned.

I am afraid of height;

but at that moment,

I feared more being alive.

I am glad I did not jump,

for if I had,

right here, right now,

this best moment would not have come.

pain is temporary;

but the growth is forever with me.

I just wanna write, and write, and write;

and keep writing until the day,

my words are like a pair of big, warm hands,

that holds your heart so tight.

on gym:

consistency is key, but rest is important too;

on life:

be persistent, but learn to let go and live life as it is.

you’re big, you’re brave, you’re beautiful,

and you should fall in love;

love someone who

makes you smile for no reason,

makes you look forward to tomorrow,

makes you feel loved,

makes you just wanna keep yapping and yapping and yapping even though you are an introvert.

if you are wondering where to find this person,

well look no where else but into the mirror.

i always get asked how i can cut my hair so short without regrets.

well,

because i know it will grow back.

why would you lose something,

when it is not yours to begin with.

still, go for it.

for death and tomorrow,

we never know whichever comes first.

“If you are fond of a jug,

say you are fond of a jug.

for then when it is broken,

you will not be upset. “ — Epictetus

we love the wrong people so that we know the right one when it comes.

be bold,

be courageous,

take that leap of faith.

with action, there is probability;

without action, there is only imagination.

for courage is even when you are scared,

you do it scared.

what is in your mind bothers you more

than what is in the reality.

as a wise man once said: it doesn’t hurt to try;

but i’d say: yes, it hurts;

but i will still try;

every. single. time.

it is okay to be in denial,

it is okay to be in grief.

but the day you step out of there,

it would be such a huge relief.

to like is a feeling,

to love is an ability.

love is an action, not just a word.

if not,

why would you feel not loved when someone tells you ‘i love you’

for actions always speak louder than words.

one of the very few things I agree with my dad:

trust your guts and have balls.

we are all dying a little bit every day;

if not now, when?

i love you dad.

i love you mom.

i love you brother, from time to time.

i love y’all my (not so many) friends.

i love you grandpa and i miss you a lot.

i wish you could see how much i have grown;

i haven’t dyed my hair,

haven’t got a tattoo,

haven’t got a Chinese husband too.

and i see you.

each and every inch of you.

because in a sky full of stars, i think i saw you;

and i see sparks fly whenever you smile.

my 2024 recap

on love language