on forgetting
“…and loving is hard, it don’t always work you just try your best not to get hurt.”
they told me to stop lying to myself.
i know, i know,
but just let me hang in there for a little while;
so that i can give it a closure
and end it as happily ever after,
even though we are separated.
do you know how amazing you are,
that you make a minimalist girl
who always go for black, white, grey, and brown
is dying to wear color now.
「so that you can see me in the crowd.」
the more i am trying to forget you,
the more i think about you,
and the more i fall for you;
over, and over, and over again that
i am now so screwed.
my therapist said you left things in my hand,
whether i want to wait or i should move on and forget;
i told her that it’s not about
whether i want to wait,
because unless i meet someone i like,
or i will not date.
and i just can’t date anyone,
knowing that deep down at the bottom of my heart,
there is already someone.
: you are my side project too.
「because i can’t force you to be part of my main project unless you want to.」
they told me not to tell you,
about my past relationships;
i don’t care,
i will tell you every single thing about me.
because i want you to remember who i am:
the woman who was hurt but still
when she’s in front of you,
she’s just a silly little girl.
