on me
“i am brave, i am bruised,
i am who i’m meant to be,
this is me.”
i needed that one last kick,
and because of you
i am complete.
why so serious when life is so ridiculous.
i know why you’re so boring;
sorry for keeping you waiting.
i have always loved disney.
i don’t know what is so lame about it.
for every song and every scene,
needs to be experienced to understand its meaning.
that makes me realized,
i am slowly evolving,
from the princess to the quinn.
i already died once,
and i will not do it twice.
against this whole damn world,
is just me and my silly little life.
they say i should have a drink,
that would give me the guts i need.
but unfortunately
i don’t drink,
so i had to do it sober,
though it was so embarrassing.
you’re too fat,
you’re too thin;
you are too jacked,
no man will like it.
well i’m sorry but
are my muscles too big that
they are blocking your wifi connectivity?
my dad always says:
ask, if you don’t know.
so i asked,
whether your family and friends
and you are close,
whether you feel loved and cared for.
because i needed to know,
whether i should stay,
or i should go.
my dad also says (yea it’s him again),
that why would you be afraid of something,
if you do not even fear dying.
i think i am starting to get it.
but my own version would probably be:
if i had the balls to confess to you,
there is nothing else that i cannot do.
you know what my kakak always says,
she says everything is just a test.
you don’t have to get an A,
as long as you learn from it.
*kakak in malay means “sister” but in this case it means “cleaning lady.”
they say don’t be a licking dog (舔狗),
for i am so in love.
i don’t think i’m licking,
but maybe i am like a dog.
for whenever i think of you,
i get so excited that
i need to wear myself out before bed,
by taking a long, long walk.
*licking dog (舔狗) in mandarin means simp.
